Monday, February 11, 2008
to me valentines day is sucks for tis yr..hahaa...i've got no one to date,n oso im werking on dat day which is a good thing..so i dun hav to waste any money on gerls..wanna noe y i feel tis way??well tis the story..chey da mcm grandmother story plak..hahha..
there was a gerl name junaidah but i call her idah uh..i got to noe her when i was in sec 3..she was schling at tanjong katong gerls school bac den..i got her no. from my fren which is her first bf..so i didnt noe my feelings could get very serious towards her.so we contacted for ard 1 yr++ n i ask her wether she would be my gf uh..but kena rejected..haha..i broke down at 1st uh but i DIDNT CRY ok..hahaha..i felt worthless but somehow i jus couldnt gif up on her..so,i jus kept contacting her..then i tried again for the second tyme n kena reject agi..den after a while she told me she attach oreadi..so i was kinda angry uh cos she bueh on our first kinda date uh bcos of dat other guy,its like i dun mean a thing to her..so i jus keep contacting her wishing dat one day she would become my gf..hahha..but at the tyme she was attach to dat guy,she still contacted me n like mengaduh her probs all at me uh..even if she broke down to tears,she would contact me..n i jus keep comforting her like a princess..its like somehow,she is someting part of my life..
she's the type dat would get frighten easily if someone told her a ghost story or if she watched horror movie..so i would jus accompany her until she fell asleep on the phone,n dats when i can put down the phone..i sacrificed my sleeping tyme n etc jus to accompany her or comfort her..doesnt dat sounds gentlemen enough..i kept her company for 3 yrs++ without complaining,even if i was asleep n she called,i would str8 away wake up n call her bac on the spot..n there was once she told me dat if by the age if 21,if she's not contacting anione..she get engage with me..i was over joy uh,she said dat i would make a good husband for her
and dats when early tis yr.i tot dat she wasnt contacting dat guy animore..den there was once when i accompany her to find a job,she asked me to hold her phone so i jus tgk2 her gamba lor..den skali kan,at her gallery,theres a pic of her n her ex lah sia!!!i was fuck up sia..but i tot it was an old pic den i view the details lah to check the date,den it was written dat,dat pic was taken last week..so i became very2 fuck up..den i went to smoke at one corner uh leaving her alone..den she say jus smoke at the place,she was sitting,den i say dunwant uh..after i smoked,i went bac to her n accompany her for the job interview with the presence of the manager,but i act cool uh,i jus chat wit the manager bout my experience werking at 7 eleven at tat point of time..so after dat,she ajak me go mkn at kfc..i blanja her cheese fries uh cos she doesnt want to eat much..so while eating she asked me y i so fed up like dat..den i say nothing lah..den she kept asking n nk act majok uh..den at tat point of tyme i jus wanted to ask her wether she was still contacting dat guy..but i was too angry n sad..i jus felt like slapping her face sia for the very fuckin 1st tyme in my life..i even felt like scolding her vulgarities for fuck sake sia..den i jus kept quiet uh all the way..den i accompany her buy her werking shoe den i sent her to pasir ris mrt..she staying at pasir ris..
when i reached hm,i tot dat i was kinda being too harsh on her..so the next day i went to her werk place to surprise her..n i felt better after dat..i sent her hm n nothing happen..hahah..she was happy dat day or maeb acting to be happy???hmm..dunnoe lah..so dat was the last tyme she ever contacted me without telling me y..even when i called her,she would answer like tk suke gitu..n she said she would call bac but it was a lie..so i tot maeb tis is the end uh..i viewed her friendster n her frens commented her n wanted to cnfirm wit her dat she change no. oreadi uh..so i was ryte uh..she doesnt want to contact me animore after 3 yrs++ of shit..
ever since den i dun feel like falling in luv again..i'll jus treat every gerl like normal frens..no special2 feeling except for those who were there for me example noelle farah,she's like the coolest hair gerl i've ever met,she would layan bac my nonsense n all...haha..even the gerl dat i've plan to take her out for sky dining n riding the DHL balloon wouldnt want to go out wit me..im cnfident 100%.. hafiz noes who n i hope he wouldnt tell anibody...hahha..so if anibody out there wants to see the gerl im talking about..her pic is below:)
thnx for reading:)
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